Eighteen Truths About Ianto Jones
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hopenightTitle: Eighteen Things No One Knows About Ianto Jones
Author: Hope Night
Pairings: Ianto/Jack, Past Ianto/Lisa, Past Ianto/OC, and Past Ianto/Doctor -10
Summary: Secrets that Ianto has but would never tell anyone. No matter how much it hurts. Because some things need to be kept to yourself.
Note: This is my first story post on lj please play nice!
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‘When I met you, I was afraid of kissing you. When I kissed you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid of losing you.’ –Anonymous
‘Those who are faithful only know the trivial side of love; it is the faithless who know love’s tragedies.’ –Oscar Wilde
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(one) When he was younger before Jack, before Lisa, before he heard the utterance of the word ‘Torchwood’, Ianto Jones wanted to be a novelist. He remembered what a wonderful release books were for him. His resolved strengthened when he was twelve, and his mother died of cancer before his own eyes. Books were an escape for him and he wanted to help other children escape from that horrible pain he felt.
Now as Ianto looks at all those finished novels, he wished that he had enough courage to send one to a publisher.
No one would ever know of this. The one that did (his mam) is dead.
(two) Despite his own hatred of knights in shining armor, there was one person on Earth he watched out for: his godsister, Rose.
Which is why, when he found out she was travelling with the Doctor. Ianto swore silently to himself that if the Doctor ever hurt her, he wouldn’t hesitate to kill him. After seeing her name on the list of dead at Canary Wharf, he never hated anything or anyone more than at that moment.
Later after meeting Mickey Smith and prying out the information that Rose was alive, well, and living on a parallel version of Earth. Ianto let go of his hatred for the Doctor and promised himself that he would apologize.
Only Mickey Smith knows that Ianto’s mother was Rose’s godmother, and he promised to never tell.
(three) Lisa Hallet was not his first love. His first love was a handsome, outgoing man named Edward Baker. They met during his first year at Uni, and it was a whirlwind romance of dates, shared kisses, and dances in the rain.
At least it as until Edward was killed by an alien of some sort (Ianto never did find out the species). Torchwood began contacting Ianto shortly after Edward’s death.
Ianto’s few friends outside of Torchwood and his family knows this fact.
(four) Ianto has a secret liking for musicals and plays. He was in many performances in secondary. He loved every moment in the spotlight. He even goes on yearly trips to the West End and treats himself to a show. Two people knew of his trips: Lisa and Tosh. Only three knew about Ianto’s collection of musical soundtracks: Lisa, Tosh, and Jack Harkness.
Ianto wanted to punch Jack’s lights out the next day at work, when he walked around and whistled ‘Luck Be a Lady’ from Guys and Dolls.
(five) He is absolutely addicted to the Harry Potter and Twilight series. Harry Potter could be explained away by the action, drama, and great tales of adventure. Twilight is quite hard to explain away. He started reading it after he began sleeping with Jack at the request of mega fan Tosh (she didn’t know that he was sleeping with Jack). He read it in one night and he immediately sympathize with Bella, who was feels inadequate to the person she loves.
He read New Moon after Jack had left the team, and burst out in tears. He spent that time wondering if Jack felt anything for him at all.
(six) He had always known that Jack was immortal. Honestly the archives hold everything plus he looked up Jack’s file. When a file says that the year he began to work with Torchwood was at the end of the nineteenth century to present day, something is seriously off. Plus the dates of his death being a list about three feet long gave quite a huge hint.
Of course he kept it a secret because he wanted Jack to tell him in his own time.
(seven) Ianto realized that there were no superheroes in the world at ages thirteen, nineteen nearly twenty, and twenty three. The events were as follows his mother dying of cancer, Edward dying, and Canary Wharf plus Cyberwoman Lisa.
Still after all that shit in his life. He realized that there is a superhero in front of him after all. Not that he would ever tell Jack that. The Captain’s ego did not need anymore inflating.
(eight) The first time Ianto had sex with a man was when he was seventeen and a half. He was on a bench in a park near his home crying. It was the anniversary of his mother’s death, and Ianto wanted to mourn the loss away from the family. He was highly surprised when a man sat down next to him and asked him what was wrong. Even more surprising to Ianto was that he confessed what he was feeling to the strange man who wore red trainers with a suit. He talked about his life and confessed how he felt inadequate to his brothers and sisters, about his dreams, about his guilt, and about the fact that he was losing his faith in love.
The man listened patiently and offered words of comfort. The man then talked about his own personal demons. He talked about wanting to be a kind man, wanting to do the right. He then talked about having to leave the one person who understood him. Ianto listened patiently to the man.
After the man had finished talking, Ianto leaned in and kissed him full on the mouth. The man seemed shocked by responded eagerly. They snuck into a hotel and about two hours later they left. The man asked if Ianto wanted to join him and his companions, and Ianto saying no that he had to go home. Ianto never did find out the man’s name.
It wasn’t until years later, while he was sorting through the archives, did he find out who the mysterious man was.
He has never told a soul. When he and the Doctor met, they acted like strangers.
(nine) Later when they were left alone, he thanked the doctor for helping him and for taking care Rose. The Doctor offered him a chance to travel again. Ianto kissed the man that was his first on the cheek and shook his head no.
The desperate pained look in the Doctor’s eyes will always haunt Ianto.
(ten) Despite popular belief, Ianto wasn’t going to turn Lisa back into human to have her back for himself. Too much had happened to him. He was going to get her human, and then dose her with retcon and send her to Australia despite how much it broke his heart. He knew deep down that the torture of being converted would turn Lisa into a shell of a person he fell in love with. He was going to get her as far away from the U.K. as possible and then carry on with his life. It doesn’t mean it hurt any less when she died or how crazy he went from her death any less real. That secret was sent to his diary never to be opened again.
(eleven) Ianto loved the saying, “Opposites attract.” Edward was a brash, loudmouth, who never gave a damn to what anyone thought. He was weird and would often start singing loudly if it got to quiet for him. Lisa, bless her, was a show off. She was biting, bundle full of energy. Jack is…well there’s really no explaining what Jack is because Jack is Jack.
Jack is the complete and utter opposite of Ianto, and Ianto loves it that way.
(twelve) Ianto gets along with Gwen. Even though she is brash, loud, and wears her heart on her sleeve. Ianto still thought she was interesting. She cared which, admittedly, is an anomaly within Torchwood. They both bonded over a love of two things: Rugby (duh they’re both Welsh) and Harry Potter.
They shamelessly abused their Torchwood authority to get to the front of the line for their copies. They do the same thing to get good seats at rugby matches.
This is their relationship. They act like children around each other but its fun as hell.
(thirteen) Ianto’s luckiest day is Friday the Thirteenth. He has never had a bad day on a Friday the Thirteenth. So while standing over Suzie’s body and propositioning Jack with a stopwatch of all things to have sex with him. He laughed when he realized that when that exchanged went on it was on a Friday the Thirteenth.
(fourteen) Ianto never stopped believing in fairytales. Even in Torchwood, a place where dreams are destroyed, he never stopped believing. He wanted a Happily Ever After. He wanted a white knight or princess or a prince. Still he wonders if his childish belief is conspiring with Fate. Or maybe this is his mam’s way of watching over him from beyond.
If not that, then why did he end up in love with Jack Harkness of all people?
‘Still,’ Ianto thought to himself as he looked at Jack in the prince costume, ‘he looks damned sexy in those tights.’
(fifteen) Ianto and Owen have a good relationship. It’s not a healthy one true, but it’s a good one. They poke and prod verbally at each other. Have an opportunity to push their sarcasm to the max. This is the first time they had ever been challenged snark wise. Both of them are too proud to bow down to the other.
Gwen is slightly repulsed by this. Jack just shakes his head. Tosh finds this amusing to a degree where she complied a DVD called Owen and Ianto’s Greatest Hits showcasing their best moment’s sarcasm wise.
After Tosh and Owen died, Ianto sat there for hours watching that DVD and laughed so hard that he started bawling.
(sixteen) Ianto will always love Jack. Even though he isn’t sure that Jack loves him now. He sees the way Jack stares at Gwen. How he idolizes her. He made her his Madonna. She can do no wrong in his eyes.
And she takes great pleasure in pointing this out to him.
However, he takes equally sick pleasure pointing out that it’s his bed Jack ends up in every night.
Somehow just by pointing this out makes Ianto feels a little bit better.
Because just by knowing that his bed is the one Jack ends up in every night is close enough to love for Ianto to deal with.
(seventeen) Ianto contemplated taking his life four times, and tried twice.
Once when he was ten and the teasing at school got so bad he felt that he couldn’t take it anymore. He was a chubby as a child and kids were cruel. Then he thought about how his mam would feel and delegated his hurt feelings to his journal.
When he was nineteen barely twenty and Edward had been killed. He actually picked up the knife and put it to his wrist. He snapped out of it and threw the knife across the room and then vomited on the floor.
After Canary Wharf he wanted to die but he had to help Lisa. Even after she died he couldn’t bring himself to do the deed. He had to live and remember her. Someone had to remember her.
The fourth time was when Jack had left. It hurt the most because Ianto had given himself completely and utterly two times before and just as he was ready to give himself, heart and soul, for a fourth time… Jack just up and left and Ianto felt like he was nothing. He actually wrote the note, pressed the gun against his temple.
The he decided to live just to show himself and to spite Bloody Captain Jack Harkness, the bastard.
(eighteen) Ianto gets scared every time Jack dies. He knows Jack will come back but he cannot help those doubts. Is he really coming back this time? Will he leave me forever? Then Jack takes that breath and Ianto is relieved.
He knows though when he dies that Jack won’t be expecting him to come back. He can’t accept that there is just darkness after he dies. All he hopes for is that when he dies he can travel in the starlight and hold onto the love he felt in his life.
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Date: 2009-06-13 10:47 pm (UTC)I just felt that the story flowed better when it was jumbled. I tried an actual order but it didn't work.
Glad you liked it!
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Date: 2009-06-13 10:00 am (UTC)Heather
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Date: 2009-06-13 10:46 pm (UTC)I'm doing good thanks! Totally living up my summer vacation. Even with my summer job...ugh cleaning. I think I did alright on my other finals. Math was so easy! My teacher gave us all the formulas! I was so happy!
Thanks for thinking of me. I really appreciate it! And I'm glad you enjoyed the story!
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Date: 2009-06-13 10:49 pm (UTC)It gave me great room to muck around with it. I'm glad you enjoyed it!
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